the love diary <3

.Tuesday, January 12, 2010 ' 8:10 PM Y

~~Mama is mad with me and daddy. Yesterdayy we went to john little,~~
and we were shopping until about 9+ i started yawning and yawning all the way. At 9.30 i asked her to stop shopping as i was really sleepy and the next dayy is school day! So she is still not satisfied with the items she had taken, and she ignored me and daddy for yesterday and this whole day. Yes, i looked as if nothing happen,because i know she will calm down slowly......but no one knows what i feel deep inside my heart! while writing this i cried. If she's just a stranger i don't mind at all, but she's someone whom i love the most! i needed her in my everyday lives to support my studies. Mama and daddy always asked me about school and all my problems, but now, she just ignored me as if i'm a ghost! Yes i'm sensitive! that's why i cried easilyy.........but the feeling of being ignored by your own mother is damn painful and its really awful! Sometimes i couldn't concentrate on my studies because i think of problems that occured at home.............

to my dearest mama : please understand me........in school i was almost asleep... and i can' concentrate fully because you're not there this morning to kiss me and support me. i cried alot while writing this! Please forgive me if i'm wrong? please don't ignore daddy as well...it's very hurting for us to be ignored by youu. i wrote this because i know if i talk to you directly i will be rejected and scolded by youu and that hurt me more and i will not stop crying. You are the most important person in me and daddy's life! i swear! Please....i beg youu...daddy blamed me for this, and i'm more hurt!!!!!

8 letters, 3 words, 1 meaning ; I LOVE YOU