.Sunday, January 24, 2010 ' 12:09 AM Y
went swimming just now..woohooooo!! reach stadium at 2.30+ and was rushing because iman had reached there before me, ain n amir did. hahax. went swimming at 3.15 and took a lot of pictures! 72 pictures in one hour. hahahahahax. i really have alot of funn. eventhough i'm sick and my voice have not recover fully but i really love it! 230110 was crazilyy great! hahahahax. thank youu nurul ain, nuriman & amir for creating a best day. eventhough people gonna say, "ye eleh swimming ajer?" but they don't have the feeling of happiness that you get if you get to have fun with your love ones. right? i don't even give a damn with what people gonna say. as long as me and my friends happy, tuu dah cukup dah! hahax.
yesterday: had a fight with bby a bit. he told me that he practice to race. wth? i told you not to right sayang? your mum also didn't agree to it. so please listen to her if u don't want to listen to me! you argue with me about this? i don't even care if this is your hobby or not. its not that i'm egois, but i don't want anything bad to happen to you(touch wood). understand sayang?? please kayy?
i will ignore you for a long time if i get to know that u still insist on doing it.
-always obey your mother's word before you regret in your life.
.Thursday, January 21, 2010 ' 6:25 PM Y
why am i feeling this way?? i should just kick this feeling away! because it's the wrong person! 'come on tasha, he's somebody else's' that's what i always tell myself. everytime i get to meet him i feel excited but my heart doesn't thump really hard,so i know that i actually doesn't love him. 6 years of waiting and he finally choose someone else. of course he didn't know that he is my first crush since primary one until now maybe?it's really hard for me to accept this actually. everytimehe talks about his gf, my heart hurts a little. i always say to myself,
but if i didn't meet him, then this feeling is gone. so this is not love right? but if i meet my bby,my heart will thump really hard that my heart almost jump out of my chest!(this is so fakee lahh hahax). now i realise how important my bby is to me. and i really love him dearlyy.
So the moral is : never wait for someone if you already know that there is no hope eventhough u tried so hard.
.Wednesday, January 20, 2010 ' 4:35 PM Y
i cried last night. but now i know that it was just a misunderstanding. hmphhh! you switched off your phone and that really breaks my heart into countless pieces because i told youu if you off your phone that's mean you're avoiding me or something like that lahh...i suddenly awake at 2 am and when i check my phone, there's 9 msgs! fuuhhh!!
all from youu saying sorry and all kinds of things. you swear to me that your battery was low
and you were outside with my cousin. oh.....i'm sorry i didn't replyy your msg because i was asleep..i'm sorry sayang.....................
.Tuesday, January 19, 2010 ' 5:18 PM Y
sayang....do u know that i love you more than anything in this world? of course my family & friends comes first. my love for you is deeper than any ocean in this world. my love is more than the clouds in the sky. my love is more than the waves in the sea. my love is bigger than the world. my love is stronger than any kinds of material in this world. my love will never fade. my love is countless & my love will not end eventhough i die. because i will continue to love youu eventhough i'm not exist in this world and no one can be my replacement in your heart sayang..remember that! eventhough we fight & most of the times i ignore you because i'm mad with youu, i know that deep in my heart i can't bear to ignore you more than a day. and my love always grow deeper & deeper when you always talk to me nicelyy and beg me not to ignore you until you cried sometimes. i didn't purposely made you cry sayang. i did that because i only want you to cry when you're by myside so i can always wipe your tears and let you cry on my shoulder. when i cry i need you too. so remember sayang when i'm not around please save your tears. don't let anyone know your weaknessess. only let me know about it.i've seen you laugh out your heart. i've seen you cry. i've seen you sick. i've seen you down. i've seen you happy. i've seen you smile. i've seen you with every emotions so there's nothing to hide. Okay? that is the same goes to me. &&&&& i love youu so muchh!!!
. ' 5:04 PM Y
i miss Siti Nur Hafizah. I miss the ketot that has been the same class with me since i entered secondary school. i miss the merepek jokes of her that end up all of us laugh because no one want to layan her jokes. i also miss arguing with her. eventhough she's stubborn & irritating but we love her. 'We' are meant for me,irah,ain,ernie,iman & azilahh. we all love her.
.Monday, January 18, 2010 ' 8:46 PM Y
Hug me when you cry. Kiss me when you miss me. Treat me like your lover.Love me to the fullest. Never ever betray me. &&&&& i'll treasure you to the
fullest. But remember, once you betray me, i'll definitelyy forget all our memories
and i won't leave a single space for you in my heart. remember that sayang!
I don't know what to call you dear? a lover? we're not even in a relationship.
But you treat me like a lover. What am i suppose to call you? boyfriend?
it sounds awkward, because we don't even have a date to remember? a baby?? but i feel
awkward when i tell about youu to my friends and i call u as 'baby'............
why is thing so difficult? hahahahahahax..........you promised me something
that made me believe that you're really serious with me..thank youu sayang...
You're veryy precious for me tauu...mmmuuaackkkxx!!!!
.Sunday, January 17, 2010 ' 4:17 PM Y
i want to meet my primary school teachers. i really,really miss them! i really want them to know how well i did in my secondary life. it's not that i want to boast around about how i did in school.but i want to tell them that i actually can overcome all the difficulties and challenges in life. I also want to tell them that i became this way because of them. They guide me all the way without the word 'give up' and they also inspire me to do well in school. I remember one of my primary six teacher said this when i failed my maths and english. " natasha, i know you are not stupid at all,it's just that you're lazy that's all. imagine if you keep up this habit of yours, what will you be in future?you said you wanted to be a teacher?if this is your attitude in life, you could not be a teacher....." this is what he said eventhough the words is not exactly the same but this is what he told me. this words made me realise that the word 'lazy' should not be in our dictionary. i want to achieve what i want.What i want after taking my 'O' level results :
-to continue my studies to JC
-enter University
-to become a full-time teacher
-& maybe an architect for my backup
i would love to become a teacher as well as an architect. it's not that i'm greedy, but i really love this two jobs and i want to achieve them.
There's nothing impossible in this world right? Maybe i can't be both at the same time.....but i will achieve it.
. ' 11:32 AM Y
I have bodyaches and i feel really weak.....uurgghh!!!! Last night me, my family and Nurul Ain went to Bugis at about 8 pm to search for my new school bag.
(this is my school bag pack,my pink watch & my small bag.......)
decided to sleep after doing D & T a bit. Now i'm going to finish off my work.......hahax!
.Saturday, January 16, 2010 ' 10:36 AM Y
I was so exhausted yesterdayy. Went to ain's place after school, then i bought my prosperity burger that i've been craving for years. And at about 2+ i rush to the Afghan bustop because i thought i was late for NP. But i met ica n hasanah and board on the same bus. Pheww! I excuse myself to go back from NP at 4+.......And something happened so i cried...................and so on..... Thanks to Nurul Ain & Family & Irahh & of course Fii, i was feeling much,much better..................thanks alot! Hmppphh...swimming was very fun because i've not swim for more than 6 months.hahaxxx......went back to ain's place and eat mee goreng so nice! and reach home about 10+.........actually i wanted to do my homework but i accidentally slept.hahahahahahahax............today swimming againnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
For her : stop showing off and f**** off lah kayy??i'm damn hating your attitude right now,pls bear that in mind!
i'm not your good friend anymore...........so get lost!!!!!
.Thursday, January 14, 2010 ' 7:46 PM Y
Monday to Thursday i can't msg my baby...uurgghhh...it feels really awful!i only can miss call him! i really miss him so damn much............................
but i guess i need to strike this off! because you're a f******* b**** i can say!
.Wednesday, January 13, 2010 ' 4:44 PM Y
For someone onlyy..........You have a very f***ing attitude do you know that??
i realise that whenever you have problems,you came to me..........
but when you're happy with your life you ignored me! yes sometimes you speak to me,
but that's when you need help..but the rest,i'm like a ghost. when you need someone
i'm there for youu,but when you doesn't need someone,you doesn't treat me like a friend.
i don't even sure whether i could call you a friend. 'friends doesn't forget each other'.
that's what friends are. and friends is not just the person who are there for you when you are sad
but when you are happy too. maybe i shouldn't bother you too much because i have chosen
the right friends. unlike you. please just appreciate what other's had done for you okay?
before other people tell you about your attitude, better realise it yourself first!
maybe in your eyes i'm not even fit to be your friends.........so go on with your life
and your stupidiest attitude,and see whether you can carry on with your life or not?
i didn't ask you to change,but please..................................i just realise the real youu..
Labels: the real you is much horrible i can say
.Tuesday, January 12, 2010 ' 8:10 PM Y
.Monday, January 11, 2010 ' 5:10 PM Y
. ' 4:57 PM Y
went to mustafa centre with mama,daddy,nenek and atuk..
eat at mohamed restaurant and i got my indian sweets! 2 of themm
are my most favouritee oness.woosh!! i likee..mak nyoooz!!!
thenn a bit bad mood...........and now i miss my baby damn,damn muchh!!!!!!
uuuurgggghhhh!!!
.Wednesday, January 6, 2010 ' 1:28 PM Y
uurghh..this is the third dayy of school and i'm absent for it. i surelyy know that i missedalot of lessons. i hate it when i have to catch up! especially this is my 'O' level yearr,i really
need to buck upp and do my very,very best! i just hope all this viruses and sickness will
always be far away from me!
.Monday, January 4, 2010 ' 5:23 PM Y
I feel different...........i don't know is everything changing?? hmpphh..they just seems different to me...
no more looong chit chats, no more secrets..usually they complained to me..but not muchh now..
does everything changing??i don't want any change..i love all of them as how i did last time and it will never change..but it just does..siiiiiiiggghhhhhhhhh...
i don't know what to say...should i just be moody all the time so i feel that i'm same as how i'm alone?
or should i be happy but actually my heart are sinking..
Labels: sweethearts
. ' 5:19 PM Y
MY SURPRISE BIRTHDAYY PARTY LAST YEARR..
THANKS SWEETHEARTSSS...
. ' 5:04 PM Y
AT LASTTT!!!!! i've been to MADURAA..for those who don't know which part of indonesia is thiss, please don't ask me. i can onlyy show u the wayy..hahax.Kayy, my daddy was unwell when we are on oor trip to madura. it took us 6 hours to reach batu ampar......thenn to the api abadi(eternity flame).....and thenn to sunan ampel..
at batu ampar daddy wanted to take wudhu there but the water was dirtyy..since we have no choice than to use it becausee we're running out of time to prayy,we used it. then it started. daddy was unwell that's whyy he gets viruses easily,whereas i'm perfectlyy fine at that moment that's whyy i'm finee until now.
daddy has an allergyy with the water and so his face got the allergy..actually i don't know how to explaiinn..hmppphh..
this is the eternityy flame........
andong........
these are definitelyy tired faces..
mama bought my pooh at sunan ampel..hahahaxx
. ' 4:52 PM Y
daddy is sick and i'm damn worried..i can't cryy..because ibu said this to me, "mama kamu sebenarnya gak boleh merasa sedihh atau nangis karena daddy sakit..kalau mama sedihh daddy gak akan cepat sembuhh..kalo mama tetap ceriaa,daddy pasti cepat sembuhh.." eventhough ibu refer this to mama, i understand that, me as a daughter must be strongg..stronger than mama becausee i know she's very downn right noww. so i just can cryy in my heart......daddy's sickness can be called seriouss..while writing this post,tears roll down my cheeks slowlyy..i didn't want this to happen,but i just can't avoid crying..to my sweetest and dearest daddy, please get well soon..i can't bear too long seeing you like this..
to my precious babyy,thank u for all your help and your support..i became stronger because i have you to relyy on.......
to my most amazing mama,i know you're not that strongg,but pleasee be....i know u cann mama..i love daddy as well..as much as you do, but i need to be strong to make daddy happier so that daddy can get well soon..
i just don't know what to do anymoree..please ALLAH, grant my wishh..this is my most important wish of all.. please make daddy get well soon..
Labels: cryy
. ' 4:42 PM Y
Daddy was mad when i took this picture..because i use his phonee.
he can't blame me actually becausee mama took a veryy long time to shop in just one place.
So,i'm damn bored in the carr.hahahahax
but whenn i took a picture with him then daddy nak pulakk tuu..tadi complain??
But this is just a bit........there's still more picturess actually..nvm.
Natasha Andiny Dewi Putri
