I can't bear to delete my old post about you. I really can't! Oh god! I'm gonna cry again. Please stop me, it'll be embarassing to cry in a public place right? What can i do other than cry? My hands are shaking. My heart is very100x hurt right now. Want to know why? I won't write in detail, but he actually told me, that he likes my own bestfriend. I swear that i'm not jealous. I'm just hurt to hear that. I'm really hurt that noone can describe how horrible the feeling is. I called Hasanah & Azilah when i was crying non-stop. Thanks, for my other bestfriends, that actually stopped my crying.
Haiyosh! I've never felt this way. You actually forget about thanking me and messaging me after i gave her number. Yes, i know you like her. But can't you at least thank me? Maybe not. For my dearest bestfreind whom my hunny likes, don't ever worry, because you are always gonna be my bestfriend. And i can't see him hurt. But like what Azilah , i think about his feeling, but i didn't think about mine. How? My dearest hunny , i've loved you too much. Should i give up or what?
You completed my heart, and you also break it. Am i in the wrong or what? Don't you really know how i actually felt for you? I'm sorry, i'll try not to think about you for tomorrow, bcoz i'm doing my 'O' mt and i'm going to achieve what want! After that, for this one whole month, maybe i'll finish off my tears so that, after the june holidays, i have no more tears to cry for you. I'll go back to Indonesia in 040609. And the biggest wish of mine is to let you understand how big my love is for you. And the most thing i wanted will be just a dream from now on.

P/S : ♥ i love you hunny♥

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My dearest, are you hurt? I'm really worried about you. I'm damn, damn worried about you. I heard that on the 180509 and it was a shock for me to hear that kind of thing. Haiyosh. I wanted to cry when i heard that. Especially when i get to see your fake smile and your fake laugh. How could you? Then, i decided not to cry in front of my friends. But when i reached home and decided to write on my diary, suddenly tears ran down my cheeks and my eyes turn red. I cried and cried until my mom gets home. But when she opened the door, i quickly rush for the toilet to wash my face. Luckily she didn't notice that. But after i had my maghrib prayers, i suddenly cried again because you also suddenly popped out in my head. But i tried to cool down when i message my friends. They advice me to be strong and so on. Haiyosh. Thanks my friend. Appreciate it alot! When i think back, how can i support him if me myself is weak? Haiyosh. I love you hunny!
Takecareess and i miss you!

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♥Hunny♥

Sometimes you are greedy(for certain reasons). You think about yourself and never think about
the consequences. I really hope to tell you how much and how big i love you. But when i think back, will you actually care about how i feel? Maybe you won't my dear. Hmmm. You had indeed completed my life and my heart. I love the way you are. I love your imperfections that maybe many people doesn't. But you know what? I don't care what people say now, because its my love life not other's!(i actually get this advice from my favourite senior, thanks!) And please just be yourself! By looking at your attitude now, i felt that you've changed a lot. For what?! To get people's attention? Not this way hunny. You're wrong! Haiyosh. I don't know how long i need to wait for you. I've been suffering just to love you and to get your love my hunny. Maybe you did know how i feel. But are you ignoring it? Since i know that you actually knew it, you became closer to me. I don't know why. But i really feel it. And for your INFORMATION, i really love you truly. Haiyosh. I miss you again. See you! Thanks for my bestfriends for keeping this secret for me and understanding me that i love that person. ♥NAMNP♥

Labels: ♥ You completed my life♥

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