.Friday, August 21, 2009 ' 3:09 PM Y
Just now had a fight with sayang. After one problem ended, another one came. This time is it my fault again? I didn't reply his message last night because i tersleep as i had a slight headache. Sayang said, 'why didn't you tell me that you wanted to sleep last night?' What the hell? I didn't feel sleepy at all last night. And i don't even know when i slept? When i woke up suddenly at 1.31 am, i saw 4 messages from sayang. The irritating part was, when he said 'are you bored being with me?'. So i msg him in the morning as usual, but sadly, not a single reply. During history i msged him, he said he is angry with me. He even said that i'm egois....am i??? Siti Nur Hafizah was angry when she saw this msg. Haiyosh! Our problems are not settled. And i want to thank, Nur Amirah, Siti Nur Hafizah, Nurul Ain, Ernie Shazwani and Siti Nur Azilah for being by myside when i'm down or happy. Because Nuriman was not in school today, so i can't consider his name. They always made my day! Thanks and love ya..But today's problem had not settled.Labels: ♥hurrttt♥
.Monday, August 17, 2009 ' 3:31 PM Y
Had a fight with sayang on 150809.. I made a mistake that almost made our relationship ended, but it just did not. Phew! I'm sorry sayang. You told me that you can't bear to leave me. Thanks for that night, i really realised how much you meant to me. How much i actually loved you. Hahahax..I really didn't regret that. And thanks to my parents and and another two person that actually made my day! I had a great fun in Pasir Ris Park and Changi Beach, eventhough i get scolded by the ice-cream uncle! What the hell!(PMS maybeee) Hmmmm.. And i get to play my swing again!!! Eventhough its at night, but i had a great fun! Hahahahaxxx. I'm sorry sayang.Labels: ♥at last♥
.Saturday, August 15, 2009 ' 7:16 PM Y
To my dearest brother :I wish to congratulate my dearest brother who is going to get married any minute now.. Brother, i hope you will get the most happiest life with your wifey. I hope your wife will love me too because i'm starting to love her, right after you marry her. I hope she is the woman you're finding. I hope she has the most amazing heart in this world. And i hope she can takecare of you really well. That is all i need! And i'm sorry i couldn't be there to watch the most precious moments in your life.. Takecare brother. Hope your wedding went smoothly like how you wanted to. Love you and your wifey lotzzz!Labels: ♥congratulations♥
. ' 7:02 PM Y
To my dearest ♥sayang : I'm sorry to make your heart cry. I'm sorry that i couldn't love you fully and i'm still asking myself why? I'm sorry i can't love you like how much you love and treasure me in your heart. I really didn't mean to hurt you. Just now, I just wanna tell you the truth that i'm trying really hard to love you fully. I told you that i can't love you 100 percent. But that doesn't mean that i don't love you at all. I swear i do sayang. I'm a bloody idiot if i didn't love my own sayang. Sayang...i need to tell you the truth. But i swear i didn't mean to hurt your heart. You suddenly messaged me without calling me 'sayang' and say 'i love you' like you always do. From there i knew you are angry. But you said you doesn't. I don't even know that my words will hurt you sayang. I don't know... I'm deeply sorry.. I will try my very best to appreciate you and love you fully. I'm damn, damn sorry and i didn't regret telling you that because i wanna be truthful to you. I really want to tell you the truth that's all. I don't want to hurt you silently, because i feel that i'm betraying you. So i'd rather tell you how i felt. But the most important thing is that, i love you only. No other guy is in my heart! Sorry sayang.. Am i wrong to do that? Labels: ♥sorry sayang♥
.Thursday, August 13, 2009 ' 2:09 PM Y
How i wish i could look inside my heart and see whether you are the one i love the most.. When someone that i like loves me so........ much, and give me all the love that he has, the problem is with me.. Many kinds of problem. Starting with disagreements from family.. Then, my confuse heart. Until now, i had never feel that my love for my sayang is fully 100 percent. And i don't know why? But when i love someone deeply, that guy will not love me, or maybe attached or even kept someone else in his heart. Odd sak! He is too perfect for my life! He is too romantic, too caring, and too nice! For the whole of 1 month and 21 days we are together, he was never mad at me before. We never fight....yes, some people may think it is good what? But if people can advice their friends that fighting in a relationship is NORMAL, then what about my relationship? Is it normal? huh?And for dearest, dearest sayang :I'm sorry for hurting you silently. I'm sorry for betraying you silently. I'm sorry that i can't love you more than 80 percent of my heart. Maybe you're not the one i'm finding. Maybe you're not the one i want. Maybe you're just not suitable for me, my heart and my pathetic life. Please just find someone else to prevent your heart pain before i break it. I know either i will leave you or you leave me, one dayyy... Please, if you want to scold me or hurt me do it, but don't you ever ignore me sayang. Because you yourself know how pathetic our situation are. And thanks sayang for loving me damn muchhhh..i love you.Yesterday:You messaged me and said that you pity me? You said because every single day i woke up in the morning and came back late and after that i need to study alot. And i'm doing this for my future and for OUR FUTURE? Since when i'm doing my exams for us? I don't know which hantuuu enter my body and i suddenly feel that i hate you for saying that. So i said, what's the link between me studying hard and our future? Sayang, i'm really sorry to say this.. And you also say that i shouldn't go to my 'another' kampoong so that you can meet me everyday, when i'm having my holidays in October. But, i said i miss my realtives at the other kampong too, so whatever it is i'm still going. And still you are not angry with me?!!! Whatever shit. I'm tired.Labels: ♥tiredd of all thissss♥
.Saturday, August 8, 2009 ' 9:02 PM Y
I'm glad to have you in my heart. I'm glad to have you in my life. I'm glad to have you in my dreams. I'm glad that you are my lover. I'm glad that you had created our love on 220609... I'm glad to be loved and treasured by you. I'm glad that you actually love me damn much. You are my one and only hunny i have in my heart. I open this heart for you, because i know you will cherish me and make me the happiest girl in the world! Thanks sayang..i love you so..........much! Takecareeeesss.....But i'm confused about my heart this days. I swear i don't know why? Odd ehk?? Sometimes i think back and ask myself this most horrible and stupid question, "do i love you?" Haiyyyyyooossshhhhhh..........nitez!Labels: ♥cofused with love♥
.Friday, August 7, 2009 ' 6:47 PM Y
On the 220609, monday, 10.03 pm, i called my favourite aunt and also talked to the guy i like. On 200609, he had confess his love for me and he needs an answer. And ask me whether i wanted to become 'his' on 220609.......so of course i said yes.
He is the most romantic, understanding guy that i've ever met,of course my daddy is the best. The most important thing is that, he really loves me and took care of me whole-heartedly. When i'm with him.....the feeling is just so............difficult to explain. But what i know is that, the feeling is damn, damn special. I love you sayang, you are damn special to me. You entered my life and know you own it. I'm really damn lucky to have you by myside sayang. But our problems are just too much. I don't knw whether i can still handle it or not? Sorry sayang, but i will never break your trust or 'play behind your back' because i hate that and i know you will definitely heartbroken with that. I will never hurt you sayang? Because i love you with my whole heart. Takecareee always.......i will always love you until you decide/i decide to leave you for our own good.
Natasha Andiny Dewi Putri
