the love diary <3

.Sunday, May 31, 2009 ' 4:37 PM Y

I can't bear to delete my old post about you. I really can't! Oh god! I'm gonna cry again. Please stop me, it'll be embarassing to cry in a public place right? What can i do other than cry? My hands are shaking. My heart is very100x hurt right now. Want to know why? I won't write in detail, but he actually told me, that he likes my own bestfriend. I swear that i'm not jealous. I'm just hurt to hear that. I'm really hurt that noone can describe how horrible the feeling is. I called Hasanah & Azilah when i was crying non-stop. Thanks, for my other bestfriends, that actually stopped my crying.
Haiyosh! I've never felt this way. You actually forget about thanking me and messaging me after i gave her number. Yes, i know you like her. But can't you at least thank me? Maybe not. For my dearest bestfreind whom my hunny likes, don't ever worry, because you are always gonna be my bestfriend. And i can't see him hurt. But like what Azilah , i think about his feeling, but i didn't think about mine. How? My dearest hunny , i've loved you too much. Should i give up or what?
You completed my heart, and you also break it. Am i in the wrong or what? Don't you really know how i actually felt for you? I'm sorry, i'll try not to think about you for tomorrow, bcoz i'm doing my 'O' mt and i'm going to achieve what want! After that, for this one whole month, maybe i'll finish off my tears so that, after the june holidays, i have no more tears to cry for you. I'll go back to Indonesia in 040609. And the biggest wish of mine is to let you understand how big my love is for you. And the most thing i wanted will be just a dream from now on.

P/S : ♥ i love you hunny♥

Labels: ♥I swear i'm hurt♥

8 letters, 3 words, 1 meaning ; I LOVE YOU